Trust. Why is it so hard? Why is it so hard to trust God – who is really the only one we can fully put our trust in? Ever since I’ve started this adventure in moving to Portland God has done nothing but prove to me that he is faithful and trustworthy. So now, when I have a million thoughts going through my thick head, I still wonder if He will really take care of me. I trust Him to a point where its comfortable, but beyond that, my faith begins to waver.
Now, I’m not complaining or whining. Truly. I know in my head that God will take care of me no matter what the circumstances. I just need to move that knowledge from my head to my heart. A friend texted me last week (and it was very timely...) She said, "Faith not Fear." That has been my motto for the last few weeks. I want to trust God. I want all he has for me. I want him to be able to use me in the way that he wants to. I want to truly surrender my life to Him without taking it back when things don't look the way I want them to.
Okay, now that I have that off my mind…
Things here are going really well. I have a job, I work in a call center as a customer service rep. Not my dream job, but it pays the bills. I just found and moved into an apartment. I will upload some pictures soon. This apartment was one of the first ones I found online when I moved here, and I didn’t think it could still be available now. It was. So exciting. Will be great to have a space that is my own. Not that I’m not extremely grateful for the people who have let me stay with them since getting here (Mark and Tracy, and Kelli). It just feels like everything is coming together.
A few weeks ago we went to Seattle to visit a church launch service there. It was a fun trip, and I think we learned a lot about what we want to do at our own launch. We were able to visit the fish market and the first Starbucks. Was pretty fun.
We also had our first launch team service on March 6th. It was great. We had worship and teaching. Can’t wait till the next one! I've started playing the electric guitar. What can I say - I love it! A lot of fun. A bit different from the acoustic, but a fun challenge.
I guess thats about it. Hope everyone is well - leave a comment - let me know you were here. :) Thanks!
